My Future Life

To day I wake up early morning and I feel my soul like stay in hell. I’m on the middle of cross road. After graduate my life faced out with situation that I never think. This is the best crisis on my life. Right now I have two choices. Stay in Java, get some job… any job… or going back north sulawesi, developing hometown.

I prepare stay in Java. I know is not simple like I think. And I should handle my feel—my paranoid habit. I fear that I’m fail in Java. And I’m losing my dreaming life. And I’m going back home with LOSER word patched on my head. Ah… tidaaak. I need more lucky stuff for survive.

But last night my Dad statement makes me feel bad. He told me that I BURN he’s POKET MONEY if I stay for long time in Java with the excellent status: UNEMPLOYMENT! Ha… ha… ha… Tuhan, I need more patients. Ok deh pap… your the best Dad in d world. I know if I going back hometown my work prospect clearer: being governmental officer, developing hometown—and of course I become my mom favorite daughter. But it’s not life that I dreaming on. Well… I love my hometown. I love my mom and dad. But I fear that I losing my self if I stay in my hometown—with mom and dad cheering my life forever and ever—yeah… forever and ever of course!

Now, I open my laptop, looking my graduate picture, and wondering about my future life.

Still with me,

Dini Ayu